the untitled one

every morning
i go to school,
but i don't want to.
because...
nobody understands me there,
nobody cares about me there;
and the same at home...

i'm tired of this place,
of this world,
i want to go away,
to an unknown place
where nobody will find me.
i just want to find at least one...
at least one mind that understands me,
so it will be possible to tell everything,
everything that i've never said to anybody.

i want to feel pain,
pain that goes through all my body,
through my mind, soul,
through my heart,
throuh every smallest piece of blood.
i want to feel how it is - dying,
i want to see what will happen after my death.
but...
with chance to return,
to return to this world,
with feeling,
that i've seen more than anybody else,
that i know more than anybody else.

ah... everybody knows that it's impossible...
another one stupid wish,
another one stupid dream,
that will never come true like the others, i've ever had.
maybe it is even better - to stay alone forever,
to dream about better life,
to wish something that will never be
and to wait,
for a miracle, that will never happen
or maybe for someone that will come...

Tu vnk nodod.
Liekas, ka tu rakstītu manas emocijas.. Tīri. Aah.
Tīk ideāli.

Hmm... forši, ka kādam patīk... mjā, gadās, ka līdzīgas emocijas...